I’m sick and I need a piece of paper to prove it April 1, 2009

Is it going to be like that for the rest of the year? For us to have peak periods and weeks of pure nothingness, times when we get 4 essays at one go then no homework for another week or two. The JC workload is strange, I never expected anythign like it.

 

I never really got homework for humanities subjects in secondary school so I never really expected any now. But I guess I shouldn’t have been so sure. Geography is manageable, CSE is getting busier and I’m missing tons of work for German(its all over the place), mathematics is just @*&#%@*$^#(I go into lectures and come out even more confused so I stopped paying attention).

 

It’s not so much of a HEAVY workload. I would say its about the same as secondary school. The only difference is that school ends so much later now, and when I get home I’m too exhausted to even take out the question paper. I guess there’s time in school in between lessons for work, but I can never concentrate in school. Never. There’re just too many people around and strange as it might be, I kind of distract myself from my work every few minutes, even in the library. I don’t like pure silence, neither do I like screams of students. Nowhere in any school is conducive for me. Home is best.

 

I’m quite pissed today because I kept sniffing and snivelling due to my brother’s unwillingness to cover his mouth when he sneezes(seriously), thus spreading the germs to me. It was SO HARD to concentrate when my nose irritated me every few seconds. Plus, I kept yawning, making my eyes tear up, which was annoying as well. The weather was as hot and humid as ever, I had a tiny fish bone stuck in my throat from yesterday’s lunch(and it shouldnt have had BONES) that I already gave up trying to swallow and NO ONE is replying my SMSes whcih is really pissing me off.

 

Now, I can’t even take flu medication because it makes me sleepy and I need to rush a CSE essay. Health over anything else? Thats bullshit. Try telling your PE teacher that you’re not feeling well without a medical certificate. Even if you’re dying they won’t believe you unless you’ve got proof printed in black and white. What do I need the damn proof for anyway? Why must we have freaking proofs for everything? What’s wrong with accepting that girls get cramps every month for reasons that everyone knows but don’t like to mention? Will it kill you to let them skip one period of PE? Oh, it can’t be that bad? I’d like you see you in their shoes, you sporty people have no right to comment on our fitness, none at all. It’s like telling a rich spoilt brat to empathize with a beggar. They simply cannot do it. Can’t you just TELL from my snivelling and my pocket full of sodden tissues that I really DO have a runny nose? Oh, I have to go for PE because I don’t have an MC? Well I tried that before and I went home with a raging fever. Take your bloody pick.

 

And what am I doing here when I have an urgent essay to rush? I need to destress, I need to get everything out of my mind before I can start ona clean slate again. If I don’t, I’m just going to vent my frustrations on everyone and I feel bad when I do that because I don’t really mean it.

 

Bottomline? I’m pissed that when I have the time I don’t have the environment for me to do work well and when I have the environment I don’t have the energy to.